I fucking hate watercolor
I don't know why I even bother trying, anymore. I won't ever get as good as those who make this a living.
I suck. I know that. So why can't I accept that? I'm just going to continue to get heartbroken every single time I try to do something remotely good. I'm not an artist. Why do I keep kidding myself? I'm just another wanna-be. I can't get better. I can't do anything right. My proportions are always wrong, my shading is awful, and my stuff is so simple... It's not like anyone gives a shit about what I post on here, anyway. My family only does it to show support, I know. I suck.
I need to just give up. Just focus on the one thing I know I'm good at: math.
Math is easy. Math is just plugging in numbers for variables. Math is a system. Math is logical. I can do math. I like math.
I have no eye for art. I have no hand for art. I can't do anything remotely right. I screw up everything I touch.
That's it. I'm done with all of this. Art is not for me. I'll just focus on math. I could actually make good money with that.